Owning I have Hashi’s

I think I realised today just how much I have been evading the fact I have Hashimoto’s.

Oh, don’t get me wrong, I try to manage the disease take my medication. I also go and get my blood tests 3 months, then inevitably change my medication. But essentially every time I try to think about better ways to manage the disease, I come to a stand still.

I was diagnosed 2.5 years ago which I took quite badly.  I had a cry when I thought about what it meant to have an autoimmune disease and the fact that I would probably never come off medication.  To be honest, I still have a cry when I think too much about it.

I get a little bit of motivation at times, normally on my feeling really shite days.  At that time I read some blogs and do some googling about better diets, have about 20 minutes of ‘I can do this’. But after about half an hour I feel defeated at the cacophony of conflicting information, and would prefer if it all just went away.

The blogs I do read are inspiring, and I understand there isn’t a one size fits all.  It is my own journey that will find the best way for me to live with this stupid disease.  (and I think anyone with Hashimoto’s will agree that it is just a jackass of a disease) I wish I felt the same drive to make myself healthy as so many other people.  But I don’t.

Until today.  Well, fingers crossed today.

Today I am committing to writing about my steps to make myself healthy and understand what triggers my symptoms.  If possible, I would love your help.  Especially if you found yourself avoiding Hashi’s as well as I have.

Step 1 – Start blogging and make yourself accountable – COMPLETE 🙂

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I wonder as I continue the journey through my forties, am I having a mid life crisis? And in that, a few questions spring to mind. What is mid life – is it 40?  45?  And what type of event quantifies a crisis? Change of job? Change of partner? Change of attitude and outlook? Or the realisation you are a mere mortal and at some point you need to take accountability for your health?  I think mine is the last one.

Any thoughts?

 

 

 

The biography of a book chapter: a short photo essay

Very interesting read

The Trickster Prince

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It starts with the sources and stories; that’s where it always starts. Not stories that exist full-formed and discerned. No. These are stories that exist always-already in-the-process-of-becoming; stories that consist in half-thought ideas, half-glimpsed connections, half-baked moments. Intuition? Perhaps. Often I do not know where they come from. Always I suspect they are wrong but worth trying still.

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It continues with the sources. Hard won over many years and forgotten long ago. To re-enter box files is to meet old friends or to be struck with the shock of the new. I told you I had forgotten these sources long ago. It continues as an archaeology of our accreted days and months in some dusty archive or other.

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It stops. It stops just at the moment when you open a document to begin. The blank page takes on the haunting qualities of nightmare. The blank page seems a proxy for…

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Doing more only to do less – do we glorify busy?

I don’t really think I could add any comments that haven’t been said – thankfully it only took me till my mid 20s to realise if I wasn’t at work, the whole corporate world wouldn’t collapse – however if I got a paper cut the share price would certainly fall and that’s why updating OH&S was so very important.

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Stop the glorification of busy. My friend Gavin was telling me about a conversation he had with some Dutch colleagues. Gavin, and his compadre Georgina, find that the sheer volume of work they are confronted with on a weekly basis is just un-doable within the confines of a normal 8-hour work day. So they regularly put in 10-hour days at the office. And another couple of hours at home picking up emails. This causes all sorts of problems: they’re tired all the time, their spouses feel ignored, they don’t want to go out at night or over the weekend and they lose touch with friends.

Hmmfff…”, said their pals, “In Holland, if you were to work like that we would think you were not coping.”

“Am I”, he wondered, “not coping? Or am I doing more than I should? And if I am doing more than I should –  what should I stop doing? And…

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18 – The Anthology

I have downloaded this anthology and the stories are pretty darn good – I really enjoyed them. Short enough to read on the toilet (obviously only if your doing a number 2) or you could read one on a short bus trip, or the whole lot on a long bus trip. And really interesting
Highly recommend

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On one of my recent posts I mentioned that my Writers’ group – Vision Writers’, were producing an anthology. Well, I am happy to announce that ’18’ is here! Woohoo, I hear you all shouting. And believe me, I am just as excited as you are.

The anthology celebrates 18 years of Brisbane based writers’ group – Vision Writers’. The group has a number of published members, including our founders Marian De Pierres and Rowena Corey Daniels. Vision Writers’ has a variety of characters from all walks of life, and as a member of the group you’re sure to get honest and invaluable feedback on any stories you submit for critique. I have learned a great deal from this fantastic Medley of Sci fi, Fantasy and Horror Authors.

18 Showcases the talents of some of our current authors with thirteen stories to lose yourselves in. The anthology covers tales of…

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My first blog

Isn’t this just amazing! This whole Blog phenomena. The ability to share thoughts and ideas with anyone with an internet connection. Hmmm, they might need a laptop too I guess; or a tablet; or smartphone; or a library card so they can pop to the local library and use the internet; or even a friend that has one of the above.

I have not blogged before, not really written a journal or diary and never put myself or any ideas out there for public scrutiny. I could be considered a touch self-conscious. Suffering from anxiety at meeting new people, attending functions, or offering up ideas is not uncommon for me. Oh, but it’s all part of my charm. (really I should put a bit more in here about me – but was a little bit distracted – see below note – that happened about here, well just before I wrote *new people)

Do I have to explain that I can be a little sarcastic, paranoid, self detracting, cynical and jumpity or do I hope that you work out. Not sure really. I’ll just see how I go.

Wow – just quickly – I just clicked on the ‘Distraction Free Writing’ button as I was blogging, now I am so distracted. I think I am so used to visual stimulus all over the place on the laptop I have no idea what I am doing without it all. Next WordPress will be telling me to go sit in a quite room, free from the distractions of the TV showing me amazing houses, the dogs barking, the washing machine spinning and oh, that’s the cat at the door. Madness I tell you, absolute madness. How do people think in such a ‘distraction free’ setting. Let me just switch back now before I completely forget what I am doing, I’ll go let the cat in and then I am back.

This blog is not particularly about anything. I have no false expectations that this will be read by more than a handful of people.  I have no aspiration to become ‘blogger of the century’ and I don’t hold any vision to change the world with the power of my words (although, I am sure I had that dream once when I was young and optimistic)

I have been told I can babble – but normally only do so to people who know me really well and I feel comfortable with. Or on the other hand, I can babble when very nervous, and that will be to the poor sod that just happened upon me and asked a question that only needed a yes or no answer. This blog is let the useless information in my head out , to babble at will, and it may ease the pain of my nearest and dearest’s ears.

I would like to put down interesting tid bits of information that I come across from time to time too. I just learnt the yesterday the bumblebee can sting more than once as its stinger is not barbed. That is information that I did not know, and yet would be really useful if I lived in a country that had lots of aggressive bumblebees.

Another interesting fact – I have named my Blog after the bumblebee.

Things that I would like to deliberate on in the future will range from the use of strange words in the **corporate world to the ability of shoe shopping to solve the problems of my world for the day.

I am looking forward to writing more and am hopeful you will look forward to reading.

Enjoy your night. 🙂

**I just looked for a synonym for discuss and the thesaurus website came up with ‘Groupthink’. Groupthink? Now that belongs in the corporate world and I am so taking it to the office with me on Monday